July 14th, 2023
The rain is pouring outside, mirroring the storm brewing inside me. It's been a week since I first kissed Liam, and I haven't stopped thinking about it.
It's not just the kiss, though it was electrifying, a spark that ignited something deep within me. It's the way he looks at me, the way he makes me laugh, the way he understands me in a way no one else ever has.
Liam is my best friend, Alex's boyfriend. They've been together for years, and I've always considered Liam a brother. But lately, something has shifted. Maybe it's the way he's been looking at me, the way he lingers a little too long in our conversations, the way he seems to understand my unspoken thoughts.
It's a dangerous game we're playing. I know it's wrong, but I can't help myself. There's a magnetic pull between us, an undeniable connection that I can't ignore.
Last week, we were at Alex's birthday party. We were all laughing and drinking, and Liam and I ended up talking on the balcony. The city lights twinkled beneath us, and the music from the party faded into the background.
He was telling me about his childhood, his dreams, his fears. He was so open and vulnerable, and I felt myself falling deeper into his orbit. Then, he looked at me, his eyes filled with something I couldn't decipher. He leaned in, and I knew what was coming.
The kiss was electric, a jolt of energy that sent shivers down my spine. It was wrong, I knew that, but it felt so right. We pulled away, breathless, our eyes locked. I saw a flicker of guilt in his, but also something else, something that made my heart race.
I've been struggling with this ever since. I feel guilty, betraying Alex, my friend, the person who has always been there for me. But I also feel a sense of excitement, a thrill that I've never experienced before.
I don't know what to do. I can't ignore this feeling, this connection. But I also don't want to hurt Alex. He's my best friend, and I would never intentionally do anything to hurt him.
This storm inside me is raging, and I don't know how it will end. All I know is that I'm caught in the crossfire, and I'm not sure I can survive this.